Are You Living the Life You Were Meant to Have?

My family stored a number of bean bag chairs behind the couch in the basement of my childhood home. When my friend Justin would come over to watch wrestling on Monday nights, we would pull out the bean bags and use them as a landing pad for our elbow drops off the top rope (aka the couch).  When I was that age I knew I wanted to be a professional wrestler.

My first band, Cleared Out, before our first show in 1999. I’m on the far right.

My first band, Cleared Out, before our first show in 1999. I’m on the far right.

Years later, my friends and I would gather in a house near our high school.  The floor upstairs was barely visible from a mixture of trash and laundry piling up. At some point, we cleaned out that room and started playing music together in it.  Our first band was motivated to achieve success. We even tried to take “professional” photos outside a nearby school using my mom’s $40 camera. When I was that age I knew I wanted to be a rock star.

When I was 18 years old, I played my first real poker tournament. The buy in for this particular event was $5. Inexpensive to start. I had been working since I was 14 years old. By the time I was 18, I was a shift manager at two fast food restaurants in town. I had saved enough money from my work to cover the miniscule buy-in. I didn’t win that tournament. A decade later I had lost $500,000 trying to win that $5 back because at that age I knew I wanted to be a professional poker player.

When I was 29 years old, I realized all the dreams of my youth and the desires of my adult life had been left unfulfilled. The latter of those dreams left me broke, depressed and suicidal.  My whole life, I believed there was something great out there for me in the world. I believed my life was meant for something. I had this feeling in my stomach that life had more to offer me than I had received, however, I never satisfied that hunger.

When I cried out to God to give me a hope and future for my life that same year, I found renewed hope that my future would be better than what I was currently dealing with – which was broken family relationships, bankruptcy and a sense that I had failed at living my life well.  Thankfully, the first time I went to church as an adult I heard a message on finding God’s plan for my life.

I had always felt there was something more to my life than I had found thus far. This message was confirmation that the feelings in my stomach were actually trying to tell me something. I was meant for something greater, however, I didn’t know I was never going to find it by myself. No matter how much I wanted to be a rock star, a wrestler or a professional gambler those goals would’ve never satisfied the hunger for finding out who I was because no one can discover what you are truly meant for without Christ. I have learned that even if I had been successful in my own feeble attempts to create a satisfying life, I still would have been unhappy and discontented because of the relationship with Jesus my life lacked.

For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do. Ephesians 2:10

What I didn’t know growing up, and what you may not realize today, is that God created you to do good things. Ephesians 2:10 above says that those good things can only be done when Jesus is in your life. Jesus is the key to unlocking the life you were prepared in advance to have.  The life you were meant to have.

You are special to God. So special, in fact, that He prepared a life for you that when lived would answer the questions like, “Who am I? Why am I here?  What am I supposed to do with my life? and Is this the life I was meant to have?”

Since I found Christ, I have found a profound answers and understanding to those types of questions. I know who I am, even though I once didn’t. I know why I’m here, even though I wouldn’t have expected to go in this direction. I know I am living the life I was meant to have because every day I wake up excited to get going. I am always looking forward to something in my life.

Instead of looking at your terrible circumstances, I want you to look forward to something in your life too – which is the life God prepared for you. I wrote a book called God Has a Sentence for Your Life — which details how you can journey to find God’s plan and purpose for your life. I believe this book can help you discover the uniqueness of how God made you and unlock the tremendous future ahead of you.

Remember though, none of these things are possible without Christ. If you have a sinking feeling in your stomach that there is more to your life than you are seeing, you are not alone. Others are feeling that same thing and that feeling can only be taken away through a relationship with Christ as Lord. Don’t take my word for it, ask God yourself. Ask Him if He will show you the life you were meant to have.



John Simmons is the President of Testimony House Ministries. He writes a daily blog for Testimony House each week day. He is the author of God Has a Sentence for Your Life and Finding Faith. Follow John on social media @newjohnsimmons. You can also watch John hosts various live streaming programs on the Testimony House Network each week.