Procedures, Prayer and Peace - Pappy's Pen #07

*Note - This article was not written by New John Simmons, but by a contributing writer named Pappy. This post is part of a continuing series called Pappy’s Pen where he writes about his family, faith and recent cancer diagnosis. *

*Note - This article was not written by New John Simmons, but by a contributing writer named Pappy. This post is part of a continuing series called Pappy’s Pen where he writes about his family, faith and recent cancer diagnosis.*

I think things are finally getting to me.  I am feeling very fatigued lately, and I am pretty sure it is not caused by anything physically I am doing or not doing.  I think it is stress and emotionally based.  All the waiting is adding up. 

It has been about 3 months since I first learned cancer was a possibility, and 1 month since I received the positive biopsy results.  Positive as in yes I have cancer.  I am still looking forward to a procedure where the doctor places gold markers in my prostate.  It will be 2 weeks after that before I get my “fitting”, where a body mold is made to hold me in the same position for my radiation treatments.  2 weeks after that I start my treatment, which will last for 2 weeks.  That all adds up to another 8 weeks until this is over.  And there is nothing I can do except wait and prep.

For the next procedure, I will be put under at a local surgery center and the doctor will place 3 gold markers in my prostate and also insert a dissolving gel to create a barrier between my prostate and rectum.  The purpose is to help hold the prostate in place and to create a barrier so the radiation doesn’t create rectal burning.  Imagine having second degree burns inside your rectum.  Use lots of gel doc.  Junk in the trunk. Please.


I have to self-administer another enema before this procedure.  Yes, I will be trying to break my previous record.  I will have lots of opportunity to go for a personal best.  I will need an enema before each of the 7 next visits.  My wife wants to know if we should buy the enemas online or if I will feel embarrassed to buy that many at the store.  I also need to get milk of magnesia and Gas X for future visit preps.  Imagine my shopping cart.  In my mind the best thing I can do is let a big one rip as I am paying.  Can’t wait to see the look on the checkers face.

On a more humorous note I have some friends who are praying for my wife and me.  They are praying that God would bless us with a small surprise each day, to show His love and concern for us.  The morning that I learned they were praying this I was reading the newspaper.  There was a coupon insert in it with a coupon for $1 off Gas X, which I had learned the day before I would need.  I texted my friend to let him know I received my first small surprise blessing in the form of a $1 coupon.  Doesn’t God work in mysterious ways?

God’s word tells us that we who are weary and heavy-laden can come to Him and receive rest.  I am weary.  I am also feeling heavy-laden.  I received some disturbing news about my parents health that I won’t go into here, but it appears I won’t be buying any more Mother’s Day or Father’s Day gifts.  Or probably this will be the last year I do. 

This is shaping up to be a really crappy year.  And yet, because of the love and concern of family and friends, I feel a certain peace.  I can’t explain it.  I know things are completely out of my control.  But I know things are in His control, and I am ok.  I will be ok.  My body is tired, my mind is going a million places, but my spirit is at peace.

Please keep praying, not just for me but for the wife, kids, and grandkids.  I can control, the only thing I can control, is how I react to what’s going on around me.  I can’t control how this is affecting them.  I wish and pray that I could protect them, that this wasn’t affecting them, but that is not in my power.  One of my young grandsons asked me the other day if I was feeling better.  They know something is going on but they really don’t understand.  I want to shield them from the bad things in this life but can’t.  So please pray for them.  Thanks.

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